heart-wrenching
today,
for the first time,
landon realized that he is different.
kaden and landon were sitting on my bed watching a movie.
they each had a bag of cereal in their hands.
landon was watching kaden grab a handful of cereal in one hand
and then grabbing them with his other hand and eating them.
landon then proceeded to try to do the same.
after a good effort,
he turned to me and said..
"mom, you help me open my hand?"
(even with my help, he was unable to keep the cereal in his hand)
as i sat back and watched this happen
it was terribly heart-wrenching and hard.
i watched his face expressions change
and the realization come to him.
i watched as disappointment covered his face.
as a mother to a boy with disabilities
i came to expect that one day he would realize that he wasn't
exactly like everyone else, but i never imagined it would happen at age THREE.